Sarariman

Went out Saturday night.

My usual scheme these days is:

- to attend some event purposely

- not to ask for company for specific attendance but to go alone

- to come just before the event, to minimize idleness (also mingling)

- to have just 1-2 drinks while there

- to leave as soon as the event ends

Yes, it is just as cautious as it sounds.

I’d rather err on the side of caution than on the side of having to explain my unwillingness to share.

Not that I mind explaining, it is just people being offended by explanations.

But Saturday night bucked

so I got summoned

to share some drinks and some words

before everything I had planned

so I idled

and I drank

and felt just like sarariman let loose from his noose

and it felt fuckin’ great.

I’m truly sure I was a pain in the butt

But it felt as good AF

And it took me two days to come to

Since being in venues that allow smoking gives me the worst hangover

THE WorsT

But it freed me from myself

And from this overbearing need to control

Everything.